The attacks came from outright character assassination to incessant whispers: “You can’t do thissssss…” over and over. “This” refers to marketing and selling the book, something I am notoriously inept at doing. Terror lurks: who do you think you are, Larry?
This tells me that Streamside must be really good and now is a time of temptation and trial.
One of the greatest chapters in Streamside is called “Weapons in the Wilderness” concerning Jesus’s temptation in the desert. So I went there, just as Jesus did repeatedly, to a quiet place, to follow what he taught us there.
The key challenge of Streamside is to ask if we are the ones blocking the perfect unity Jesus prayed for, and that sincere asking must start with me, or the book is worthless.
So I declared a personal fast, intentionally drinking water only, from sunrise to sunset, while continuing my normal daily routine as a professional engineer. From past experience, I knew I would meet God there, but that it would require vigilance to not go too far and damage my health.
Here are my notes: Day 1 – Listen. Count my blessings. Focus on intimacy with Jesus. Disaster strikes immediately. Major conflict at work. Vicious calls made to company management about my work. Home feeling torn apart by lions in the den.
Day 2 – Awake to incredible peace, what just happened? Crisis continues at work, out of my control. But my mind is clearer than it has felt in months. Now a rush of ideas concerning marketing the book, as if the flow has been unblocked within me. Weapons in the wilderness! Straight from God. Now focus on forgiving the guy who is attacking me.
Day 3 – Woke up dizzy, elevated pulse, very sore neck, big headache. God is speaking – you are a coffee addict, Larry. Be addicted only to me. You have done what I asked. I will guide you through this process on your weakness. Stop the fast. I love you.
Fasting for unity.
Weapons in the wilderness.